Post by DarkestofDays on Mar 17, 2006 23:41:04 GMT -5
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: Julia?.... Timothy!
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: *looks up* Dr...Marcoh...*still sobbing hard*
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Timothy...he's...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: What happened?
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: *thinking to herself* (I...I can't bring myself to tell him his son was murdered...) You seals...around his neck...they...they couldn't keep the energy from reaching his mind...and it...
OneO2Rule em all: (*your)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : cry of horror, kneels next to Timothy hugging his son's body : I'm sorry... I'm so sorry you had to .... I'm sorry.....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: He's...at least he's not hurting anymore...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: It must.... have been horrible.....and....I wasn't there.... I told him I would be there.......he must have felt so alone out here in the desert... : sobs uncontrollably :
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: ...I...I don't know...by the time I found him...I had wanted to be there too for him...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : : sobbing too hard to speak, rocking back and fourth slightly, still clinging to timothy's lifeless body :
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Everything's going...to be all right Dr. Marcoh...Timothy's suffering is over now...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: He is living a new life without pain in heaven...I know is...
OneO2Rule em all: ( ;_; )
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: He was so scared..... and...I didn't know what to tell him.... I ... I've never been a religious man myself..... (wife's name) wanted me to be... but... I don't know....I'm not Ishbalan....I felt like an invader.... I couldn't give timothy what he needed most.....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Dr. Marcoh...what are you talking about?
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: You did everything for your son, you cared for him when he was too weak to do so for himself, and you did everything in your power to try and save him...
Myriel Bienvenu: (oh...she doesn't know about his wife? and their ancestry?)
OneO2Rule em all: (Not really...she knew he had some Ishbalan ties but not that close...)
Myriel Bienvenu: ( ahh okies )
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: You couldn't have given him any more than you did...you did everything for him...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I'm not talking about his body! I'm talking about his soul! Don't you understand!?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I was simply useless to him there....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: His soul? I...am sure that he has been given salvation Dr. Marcoh...Timothy was a good person and had a pure heart...surely Ishbalah or any god would see this...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: I...I know he was saved...he had to have been...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I....yes..... you're right.....but....he was so worried....and I didn't know what to tell him....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Worried about what?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: He was... afraid to die.....he didn't want to suffer here....he didn't want to be a burden....but....he was afraid.....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Of...not being saved...?
Myriel Bienvenu: marcoh: I don't know.....just....afraid....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: His fears are gone now...as well as his suffering...we should...bring him to the gravesite he wanted...beside his mother...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : Yes...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Here...I can help you carry him...his body is getting heavier...the properties stone...seem to be solidifying...
Myriel Bienvenu: : carries him to the gravesite :
Myriel Bienvenu: BRB
OneO2Rule em all: okie
Myriel Bienvenu: back
OneO2Rule em all: (^^)
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Timothy...he dug this grave himself with the little strength he had left...I helped him because it seemed to mean so much to him...
Myriel Bienvenu: ( eeegads....)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: A boy shouldn't have to dig his own grave....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: He...he wanted to be next to his mother...and I couldn't convince him to stop. I kept telling him he'd...work himself to...to death...and he kept telling me if he did then there would be a grave right here to bury him in...*cries*
Myriel Bienvenu: ( LOL.... I can picture him saying that...all sarcastic like..... )
OneO2Rule em all: (yeah that's what I meant)
Myriel Bienvenu: (yeah I know :-) I was agreeing :-)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : small 'heh' : That's Timothy all over ....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Well...we should bury him...I...I don't know any prayers myself to say over his body...my family wasn't religious either...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I... guess we'll just have to make up our own prayers then...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: I'll try...*crying slightly still and bows her head* Oh God, please deliver Timothy's soul unto heaven and forgive him the sins he committed here on earth...and heal him of the wounds he suffered...so he will experience no more pain..."
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: Amen....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: It will take a while to...to bury him...I can do it myself Dr. Marcoh...you could get sick out here in the night air...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: No! : takes shovel : He's my son....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: If you start feeling weak or cold...Timothy wouldn't want you getting ill over this...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I'm fine!
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Just be careful...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: *begins to bury him*
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : does the same :
OneO2Rule em all: *a while later* Julia: There...he's finally...laid to rest...I just wish there had been something more I could have done for him...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: You were good to him...and he appreciated it...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: But that wasn't enough...I still couldn't help him...and I wasn't there for him when he...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Are... are you going to be all right Dr. Marcoh? Is there anything you need?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: No...I'm....i'm okay...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: You don't look so well...maybe we should go to the shelter and have you checked quickly...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I'm fine! Really!....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: ...all right...but...where are you going to go though?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I'm... going to go home...
Myriel Bienvenu: (or...where would he run into mustang?)
OneO2Rule em all: (Well the remember the State declared martial law so there's a military encampment just outside the Ishbalan grounds...and he had gone to meet Mustang that night when Timothy died so he's still there...and Marcoh would want to go there...so he could find something to, well, take his own life with... ;_; )
Myriel Bienvenu: (kay)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: Maybe I'll... go to the military camp....see Mustang...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: All right, but make sure you get home too and get some sleep. I'll be by in the morning to check on you...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: A-alright.......
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: Julia?
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Yes Dr. Marcoh?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: Thank you.... for everything...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : Deep bow :
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: You're...you're welcome. You've more of a father to me than my own dad was...
Myriel Bienvenu: (nyah...going to make it hard for him are you? LOL )
OneO2Rule em all: (well it's true to the fic, Julia's father is a tyrannical military captain who forced her into the State...and she really respects Marcoh...)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: Thank you... that... means a lot to me...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Get some rest all right? I'll see you tomorrow...*turns and leaves towards her home*
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: *whispered to self* I hope he really is all right...
OneO2Rule em all: (><)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : goes to the Military Camp :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Oh, did you leave something here Tim? I didn't think you'd be back tonight...
Myriel Bienvenu: (how is mustang going to find out about Tim)
Myriel Bienvenu: (timothy)
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Are...you all right? Did something happen? You don't look too well...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: It....it's Timothy...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: What happened? Has he...*breaks off*
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : bows head sadly :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Tim...I'm...I
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: I'm so sorry...is there something I can do for you? We can help you with the burial...I can have my men aid you...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I ... I've already taken care of that......
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I'm very cold...do you ... have something to warm me up? (I'm thinking alchoholic here.... )
OneO2Rule em all: (does Marcoh drink out of curiosity? XP)
OneO2Rule em all: (since you've mentioned have the alcohol come in...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (not as far as I know......this should be sending warning flags off for Roy....but he'll chalk it up to stress)
Myriel Bienvenu: (although I read a story about mustang where mustang always got his booze from marcoh during the rebellion...LOL...so... )
Myriel Bienvenu: (But I'd like to think he's a sober guy)
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: If it's what you really want...my men brought along some brandy with them...but you know drinking isn't going to do anything Tim...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh; Brandy's fine...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: *pours him a glass of it and hands it to him*
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: Thanks... : salutes with the glass : To Timothy....
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Where did you bury him Tim...? You know we have a strict policy of...deceased State personell...the death has to be recorded for our files...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I.. can't say...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: You mean...you weren't...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Was there anyone present when he died?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : chokes back a sob : No...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: I see...from what you saw...could you tell me what you suspected had happened...I can take all this down later so we can get this technicalities out of the way...
Myriel Bienvenu: (how much does Roy know about tim's ailment? does he know he's a living stone factory?)
OneO2Rule em all: (Yes, Marcoh informed him of it...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (Kay)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: The energy.... it finally overcame him...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: I know this is hard Tim, but I need specifics for these records...how did the energy kill him?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I don't know, dammit, I wasn't there!... I suppose it broke through the last of my seals around his neck and....went to his brain... and...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: All right, I can see where this is going...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: I'll take care of the paperwork for you...if there anything else you need before I get to work?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: ...n-no.... no, I'm fine... Thank you, my friend. Thanks for everything... : takes brandy bottle off of Roy's desk and leaves :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: *watches after him a moment, sighes and finds the paperwork to fill out* I hope he doesn't drink himself to death...
Myriel Bienvenu: (hmm.... how do you want want marcoh to attempt suicide? any preference?)
OneO2Rule em all: (I'm sorry that sounds kinda sick...XP)
OneO2Rule em all: (Uh...I dunno...what do you think would be best...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (well, I have a couple ideas... )
Myriel Bienvenu: (one is to go for a direct paralelle to Mustang and have him think about shooting himself.... but I think marcoh would think that's too painless)
OneO2Rule em all: (yeah...and I'd like something a bit more original...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (so my other idea is some kind of poison or something which causes a lot of pain before it kills you)
OneO2Rule em all: (That would probably work...the State could have brought along some sort of poison as a last resort weapon...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (OH! I just thought of his poison of choice....heheheh)
Myriel Bienvenu: (Red water..... )
OneO2Rule em all: (Oooo, that would work...)
OneO2Rule em all: (Red water can't be consumed without killing someone...)
OneO2Rule em all: (Ouch...><)
OneO2Rule em all: (We'll go with that...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (it has to kill? there's no middle ground? I mean those women lived long enough to have their babies, and presumably afterwards...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (because I thought it might be interesting if he actually did ingest some before Roy stops him)
OneO2Rule em all: (This is pure red water though...and he's ingesting it directly...it's a bit different than simple exposure to it...)
OneO2Rule em all: (Well I didn't say it didn't take a large amount before it killed...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (they put it in the drinking supply)
Myriel Bienvenu: (oh okies :-))
Myriel Bienvenu: gah that face
Myriel Bienvenu: ( I was thinking he could mix it with the brandy)
OneO2Rule em all: That works...
Myriel Bienvenu: (which would make it interesting since mustang hoped he didn't drink himself to death :-P)
OneO2Rule em all: XP Yeah I thought you might play on that...okay, we'll go with this...
Myriel Bienvenu: (hehehhee....)
Myriel Bienvenu: (hmm...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (should we just skip right to where Mustang comes in? )
OneO2Rule em all: (well I would think Marcoh would say something to condemn himself maybe and then mix it in and drink some...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (and you can write the bit without dialogue, since you're better at that than me...)
Myriel Bienvenu: ahh okies ;-)
Myriel Bienvenu: (: thinks :-)
Myriel Bienvenu: (yeah I think he would talk to Timothy while doing it....)
OneO2Rule em all: (Yeah...)
OneO2Rule em all: (He's a bit delusional I imagine...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (also he's had a drink or two...)
OneO2Rule em all: (yeah...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (not enough to make him incoherent, just enough to muddle his judgement a bit)
OneO2Rule em all: (precisely)
Myriel Bienvenu: (where's he going to find the red water?)
OneO2Rule em all: (The State would have a supply of it amongst their weapons...)
OneO2Rule em all: (You know, another last resort weapon...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (>_<)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : wanders around aimless :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : : accidentally drops the now-empty shot glass and it smashes on ground : Dammit!
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : considers going back to mustang to get another one, but figures that mustang'll think he had enough and just take back the brandy bottle. Marcoh looks for a supply tent to get another cup or something :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : wanders past an armory and stops :
Myriel Bienvenu: (oops, wait.... would the guards stop him? or is he good with the state now?)
OneO2Rule em all: (He's good with the state...)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : wanders into the armory tent :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : mumbles to himself : ... What monsters we have become....
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: ... to bring arms against innocent people... people so poor they can barely feed themselvs... we should be making medicine...not weapons...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : tears mist eyes : I never wanted to hurt anyone... least of all you, Timothy.... or your mother....I loved you... I love you.....
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I thought my stones would help people.... and....all they have done is ruin people's lives......the people I wanted to help...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : is crying now : And....I- I couldn't help them... I couldn't... Timothy I'm sorry. I couldn't save you... I'm a terrible father.... I left and never returned....
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: You...you shouldn't have had to go looking for me....what kind of father abandons his only son!?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: And....when you found me... I wasn't even around when you needed me most... I left again....I left! : leans against a shelf : But that's what I've always done, isn't it? Whenever things got hard.... I left...I left the war....I left your mother, I left you... I left you again....I.... : is crying too hard to speak :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: God! Everything I touch is tainted.... Damn me..... damn alchemy! It is the Devil's Work....I hate it! Those damned stones.... how could I have ever thought they could be used for good....
Myriel Bienvenu: used for anything but evil*
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: Timothy.... It's my fault you got mixed up in alchemy....if ...if I had been there....you wouldn't have been inclined to joined this damned state.....
Myriel Bienvenu: This Damned State and their damned wars! .. : knocks some weapons over semi-intentionally :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : the weapons fall near a vat of red water :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : : eyes vat as he's picking up the fallen weaponry :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : Timothy.... I- I'm sorry.... I have to run again... I know.... I said I wouldn't ..... but..... you wanted me to be happy.... you asked me to try to be happy ...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I can't be happy in a world which wages war on itself for a cause it has forgotten... The serpent biting it's own tail... It is us.
Myriel Bienvenu: devouring*
Myriel Bienvenu: The serpent devouring itself^
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : begins to pry open the lid to the vat of red water :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : stares, almost transfixed by the red water's shimmery surface : This stuff should have killed me years ago... I spent years in that damned lab with my pathetic notes, pathetic calculations, and pathetic daydreams. I am the one who was exposed... you didn't spend a day in that devil's nest... and.... you...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : : goes to take another swig of brandy straight from the bottle, but instead dips the bottle into the red water... filling the void of the brandy he's drunk :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : This... is as it should have been : steels his nerves and drinks from the poisoned brandy bottle :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : cries out and doubles over in pain as both the red water and brandy burn his throat : Oh Timothy, I'm sorry....it couldn't have been this way...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: *enters into the armory* Tim...? If you still have it I need Timothy's...pocketwatch back...comes upon Marcoh who's hunched over in pain and sees the open vat, red water splashed on the floor and in the brandy bottle*
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : takes another swig of red brandy before noticing Mustang : Roy.... my friend.... eeeergh.. : falls to his hands and knees in pain :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: My God Tim...*rushes over to his side* What the hell do you think you're doing? *snatches bottle from him and throws it, allowing it to shatter* What the hell do you think that was going to prove?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: No! Give it back! :Tries to go straight for the vat of red water, but mustang restrains him which isn't too hard considering the pain coursing through him : My...my poor boy....my poor little boy had to go through months of this torture.......
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: *holding him back* Get ahold of yourself Tim, do you honestly believe Timothy would want you to put yourself through this?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : looks mustang in the eye, frightened by his words : It's justice, for all the evil I have caused... for the stones, for the rebellion, and most of all for Timothy... I...want to die.... I'm so tired of ... everything... but.... I don't deserve to die quickly and painlessly..... : weak laugh : Poetic no? Drowned in my own vat of red water.....
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : laugh turns to cry of agony :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Dammit Tim, you're out of your mind! *throws him away from the vat, kicking it over so the red water absorbs into the sand* What about during the massacre when I wanted the same thing and you talked me out of it? We both saw Hell together and managed to survive...you're only going to make Timothy's suffering last by harming yourself this way you know...nothing good can come of you killing yourself at this point...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: His suffering has ended...do you really want to die just so you can tell him you took your own life our of self-condemnation? Think about what you're doing...
OneO2Rule em all: *out
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : laying on his side in a fetal position in the sand crying :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Tim...*turns around towards the entrance* I need a medic in here stat! *turns back and crouches down beside Marcoh, placing a hand on his shoulder* Listen...I'll probably never know the pain you're going through right now...having lost your child...but Tim this won't do anything but cause more suffering...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I'm a coward. I've always been a coward... I joined the State....I wasn't thinking of the Exchange... that along with the resources and funding came the price of serving in the State's wars.....I never thought that they would.... I thought the stone would be used to help people.... and then...... during the rebellion.... I couldn't stand it.... I ran away.... you..... you stayed..... you are the stronger man... and then.... when the State came to claim me... I ran again.... I put the Elric's at risk, I put you at risk.... your carreer...for harboring a deserter.... I have always ran....whenever things got too hard..... why should now be any different.......
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I'm taking the suffering with me... like the last time...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : another spasm of pain :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: *attempts to keep him conscious* This isn't running away Tim, this is is giving up hope competely...I just don't understand how you can see anything gained from this...you won't take the suffering with you, you'll only continue it...do you want Timothy's death to be in vain?! He died to remove the sin of the stone with him...and you're just continuing this horrible crime by poisoning yourself with the same components...you're shaming him in doing this!
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : covers ears with his arms and weeps : Please don't say that..... please....I can't bear it anymore....I can't...I can't... I can't.....
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Listen to me Tim! The sin and the suffering must end! If you take your life here and now you're hurting Timothy more...you're continuing the same kind of torment that he couldn't escape from...dammit it was this same posion you were just pouring into yourself that did this to Timothy in the first place! You should be honoring his death...cherishing the memories you have of him and continuing to love him for the person he was and still is on the other side...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I know...it's just so.....you can't understand what it's like...You don't know what it's like to hold a newborn baby in your hands... to see all the light of possibilty in the world in his eyes.... and then to watch that light dim to a pinprick when he knows there are no more options and there's nothing you can do to save him and he's pleading...begging you to find something that can save him...: spasm of pain : I know what i've done is stupid.....I am nothing but an old fool.....but wh- What do you want me to do? I've already drunk the red water.... there's no going back now.....: pain... :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: *notices Marcoh has dropped the pocketwatch onto the ground and picks it up, opening it to find but a small stone in it* It's not too late...we can absorb it out of you with this...*removes stone carefully and holds it towards Marcoh* I was hoping...that by using it I could find all the stones and dispose of them...but that isn't going to happen now...so keep it and it'll keep you safe...it can absorb alchemic energy quite easily so you can defend yourself...
Myriel Bienvenu: ( duuude....cool...it fits! ^_^ )
OneO2Rule em all: (^^)
Myriel Bienvenu: (would mustang know immediately what it is? )
Myriel Bienvenu: ( doesn't seem like his line of expertise)
OneO2Rule em all wants to directly connect.
OneO2Rule em all cancels request; no connection was made.
OneO2Rule em all: (The redness kinda gives it off...yeah I think he would recognize it, he used a similar one during the massacre...
OneO2Rule em all: *sry hit that by mistake...*
Myriel Bienvenu: (ahhh yeah, you're right )
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: *uses the stone to absorb the energy from Marcoh* I'm going to have to keep you monitored for a while after tonight Tim; I know it hurts like nothing else, but hopefully you can find solace in something other than harming yourself...Timothy is probably watching you from above right now, is this what you want him to see? You need rest...I promise you the pain will ease with time...*stands and allows the medics to check and helping Marcoh to his feet* Take him to one of the bunkers and make sure he stays there. Tim, I don't want you leaving this camp until I decide that you're well enough to...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I feel so.... ashamed of myself...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Tim, you just need to heal...so go and rest and leave this night behind...you're the only one who can keep Timothy's memory truly alive...don't let him down...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: If.... if you hadn't found me.... I don't know what I would have done......I owe you my life, my friend....
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Thus is the principle of Equivalent Exchange...you convinced me to live on once...and I have done the same for you...*departs*
Myriel Bienvenu: Random Medic : Come on, Sir....
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : Follows Medics....
OneO2Rule em all: (Hey this went better than I thought it would...XP)
Myriel Bienvenu: (yeah....we got to see an interesting side of marcoh..)
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: *looks up* Dr...Marcoh...*still sobbing hard*
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Timothy...he's...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: What happened?
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: *thinking to herself* (I...I can't bring myself to tell him his son was murdered...) You seals...around his neck...they...they couldn't keep the energy from reaching his mind...and it...
OneO2Rule em all: (*your)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : cry of horror, kneels next to Timothy hugging his son's body : I'm sorry... I'm so sorry you had to .... I'm sorry.....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: He's...at least he's not hurting anymore...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: It must.... have been horrible.....and....I wasn't there.... I told him I would be there.......he must have felt so alone out here in the desert... : sobs uncontrollably :
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: ...I...I don't know...by the time I found him...I had wanted to be there too for him...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : : sobbing too hard to speak, rocking back and fourth slightly, still clinging to timothy's lifeless body :
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Everything's going...to be all right Dr. Marcoh...Timothy's suffering is over now...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: He is living a new life without pain in heaven...I know is...
OneO2Rule em all: ( ;_; )
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: He was so scared..... and...I didn't know what to tell him.... I ... I've never been a religious man myself..... (wife's name) wanted me to be... but... I don't know....I'm not Ishbalan....I felt like an invader.... I couldn't give timothy what he needed most.....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Dr. Marcoh...what are you talking about?
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: You did everything for your son, you cared for him when he was too weak to do so for himself, and you did everything in your power to try and save him...
Myriel Bienvenu: (oh...she doesn't know about his wife? and their ancestry?)
OneO2Rule em all: (Not really...she knew he had some Ishbalan ties but not that close...)
Myriel Bienvenu: ( ahh okies )
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: You couldn't have given him any more than you did...you did everything for him...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I'm not talking about his body! I'm talking about his soul! Don't you understand!?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I was simply useless to him there....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: His soul? I...am sure that he has been given salvation Dr. Marcoh...Timothy was a good person and had a pure heart...surely Ishbalah or any god would see this...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: I...I know he was saved...he had to have been...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I....yes..... you're right.....but....he was so worried....and I didn't know what to tell him....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Worried about what?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: He was... afraid to die.....he didn't want to suffer here....he didn't want to be a burden....but....he was afraid.....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Of...not being saved...?
Myriel Bienvenu: marcoh: I don't know.....just....afraid....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: His fears are gone now...as well as his suffering...we should...bring him to the gravesite he wanted...beside his mother...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : Yes...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Here...I can help you carry him...his body is getting heavier...the properties stone...seem to be solidifying...
Myriel Bienvenu: : carries him to the gravesite :
Myriel Bienvenu: BRB
OneO2Rule em all: okie
Myriel Bienvenu: back
OneO2Rule em all: (^^)
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Timothy...he dug this grave himself with the little strength he had left...I helped him because it seemed to mean so much to him...
Myriel Bienvenu: ( eeegads....)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: A boy shouldn't have to dig his own grave....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: He...he wanted to be next to his mother...and I couldn't convince him to stop. I kept telling him he'd...work himself to...to death...and he kept telling me if he did then there would be a grave right here to bury him in...*cries*
Myriel Bienvenu: ( LOL.... I can picture him saying that...all sarcastic like..... )
OneO2Rule em all: (yeah that's what I meant)
Myriel Bienvenu: (yeah I know :-) I was agreeing :-)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : small 'heh' : That's Timothy all over ....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Well...we should bury him...I...I don't know any prayers myself to say over his body...my family wasn't religious either...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I... guess we'll just have to make up our own prayers then...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: I'll try...*crying slightly still and bows her head* Oh God, please deliver Timothy's soul unto heaven and forgive him the sins he committed here on earth...and heal him of the wounds he suffered...so he will experience no more pain..."
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: Amen....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: It will take a while to...to bury him...I can do it myself Dr. Marcoh...you could get sick out here in the night air...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: No! : takes shovel : He's my son....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: If you start feeling weak or cold...Timothy wouldn't want you getting ill over this...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I'm fine!
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Just be careful...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: *begins to bury him*
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : does the same :
OneO2Rule em all: *a while later* Julia: There...he's finally...laid to rest...I just wish there had been something more I could have done for him...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: You were good to him...and he appreciated it...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: But that wasn't enough...I still couldn't help him...and I wasn't there for him when he...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Are... are you going to be all right Dr. Marcoh? Is there anything you need?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: No...I'm....i'm okay...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: You don't look so well...maybe we should go to the shelter and have you checked quickly...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I'm fine! Really!....
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: ...all right...but...where are you going to go though?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I'm... going to go home...
Myriel Bienvenu: (or...where would he run into mustang?)
OneO2Rule em all: (Well the remember the State declared martial law so there's a military encampment just outside the Ishbalan grounds...and he had gone to meet Mustang that night when Timothy died so he's still there...and Marcoh would want to go there...so he could find something to, well, take his own life with... ;_; )
Myriel Bienvenu: (kay)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: Maybe I'll... go to the military camp....see Mustang...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: All right, but make sure you get home too and get some sleep. I'll be by in the morning to check on you...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: A-alright.......
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: Julia?
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Yes Dr. Marcoh?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: Thank you.... for everything...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : Deep bow :
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: You're...you're welcome. You've more of a father to me than my own dad was...
Myriel Bienvenu: (nyah...going to make it hard for him are you? LOL )
OneO2Rule em all: (well it's true to the fic, Julia's father is a tyrannical military captain who forced her into the State...and she really respects Marcoh...)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: Thank you... that... means a lot to me...
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: Get some rest all right? I'll see you tomorrow...*turns and leaves towards her home*
OneO2Rule em all: Julia: *whispered to self* I hope he really is all right...
OneO2Rule em all: (><)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : goes to the Military Camp :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Oh, did you leave something here Tim? I didn't think you'd be back tonight...
Myriel Bienvenu: (how is mustang going to find out about Tim)
Myriel Bienvenu: (timothy)
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Are...you all right? Did something happen? You don't look too well...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: It....it's Timothy...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: What happened? Has he...*breaks off*
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : bows head sadly :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Tim...I'm...I
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: I'm so sorry...is there something I can do for you? We can help you with the burial...I can have my men aid you...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I ... I've already taken care of that......
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I'm very cold...do you ... have something to warm me up? (I'm thinking alchoholic here.... )
OneO2Rule em all: (does Marcoh drink out of curiosity? XP)
OneO2Rule em all: (since you've mentioned have the alcohol come in...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (not as far as I know......this should be sending warning flags off for Roy....but he'll chalk it up to stress)
Myriel Bienvenu: (although I read a story about mustang where mustang always got his booze from marcoh during the rebellion...LOL...so... )
Myriel Bienvenu: (But I'd like to think he's a sober guy)
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: If it's what you really want...my men brought along some brandy with them...but you know drinking isn't going to do anything Tim...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh; Brandy's fine...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: *pours him a glass of it and hands it to him*
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: Thanks... : salutes with the glass : To Timothy....
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Where did you bury him Tim...? You know we have a strict policy of...deceased State personell...the death has to be recorded for our files...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I.. can't say...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: You mean...you weren't...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Was there anyone present when he died?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : chokes back a sob : No...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: I see...from what you saw...could you tell me what you suspected had happened...I can take all this down later so we can get this technicalities out of the way...
Myriel Bienvenu: (how much does Roy know about tim's ailment? does he know he's a living stone factory?)
OneO2Rule em all: (Yes, Marcoh informed him of it...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (Kay)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: The energy.... it finally overcame him...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: I know this is hard Tim, but I need specifics for these records...how did the energy kill him?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I don't know, dammit, I wasn't there!... I suppose it broke through the last of my seals around his neck and....went to his brain... and...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: All right, I can see where this is going...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: I'll take care of the paperwork for you...if there anything else you need before I get to work?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: ...n-no.... no, I'm fine... Thank you, my friend. Thanks for everything... : takes brandy bottle off of Roy's desk and leaves :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: *watches after him a moment, sighes and finds the paperwork to fill out* I hope he doesn't drink himself to death...
Myriel Bienvenu: (hmm.... how do you want want marcoh to attempt suicide? any preference?)
OneO2Rule em all: (I'm sorry that sounds kinda sick...XP)
OneO2Rule em all: (Uh...I dunno...what do you think would be best...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (well, I have a couple ideas... )
Myriel Bienvenu: (one is to go for a direct paralelle to Mustang and have him think about shooting himself.... but I think marcoh would think that's too painless)
OneO2Rule em all: (yeah...and I'd like something a bit more original...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (so my other idea is some kind of poison or something which causes a lot of pain before it kills you)
OneO2Rule em all: (That would probably work...the State could have brought along some sort of poison as a last resort weapon...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (OH! I just thought of his poison of choice....heheheh)
Myriel Bienvenu: (Red water..... )
OneO2Rule em all: (Oooo, that would work...)
OneO2Rule em all: (Red water can't be consumed without killing someone...)
OneO2Rule em all: (Ouch...><)
OneO2Rule em all: (We'll go with that...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (it has to kill? there's no middle ground? I mean those women lived long enough to have their babies, and presumably afterwards...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (because I thought it might be interesting if he actually did ingest some before Roy stops him)
OneO2Rule em all: (This is pure red water though...and he's ingesting it directly...it's a bit different than simple exposure to it...)
OneO2Rule em all: (Well I didn't say it didn't take a large amount before it killed...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (they put it in the drinking supply)
Myriel Bienvenu: (oh okies :-))
Myriel Bienvenu: gah that face
Myriel Bienvenu: ( I was thinking he could mix it with the brandy)
OneO2Rule em all: That works...
Myriel Bienvenu: (which would make it interesting since mustang hoped he didn't drink himself to death :-P)
OneO2Rule em all: XP Yeah I thought you might play on that...okay, we'll go with this...
Myriel Bienvenu: (hehehhee....)
Myriel Bienvenu: (hmm...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (should we just skip right to where Mustang comes in? )
OneO2Rule em all: (well I would think Marcoh would say something to condemn himself maybe and then mix it in and drink some...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (and you can write the bit without dialogue, since you're better at that than me...)
Myriel Bienvenu: ahh okies ;-)
Myriel Bienvenu: (: thinks :-)
Myriel Bienvenu: (yeah I think he would talk to Timothy while doing it....)
OneO2Rule em all: (Yeah...)
OneO2Rule em all: (He's a bit delusional I imagine...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (also he's had a drink or two...)
OneO2Rule em all: (yeah...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (not enough to make him incoherent, just enough to muddle his judgement a bit)
OneO2Rule em all: (precisely)
Myriel Bienvenu: (where's he going to find the red water?)
OneO2Rule em all: (The State would have a supply of it amongst their weapons...)
OneO2Rule em all: (You know, another last resort weapon...)
Myriel Bienvenu: (>_<)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : wanders around aimless :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : : accidentally drops the now-empty shot glass and it smashes on ground : Dammit!
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : considers going back to mustang to get another one, but figures that mustang'll think he had enough and just take back the brandy bottle. Marcoh looks for a supply tent to get another cup or something :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : wanders past an armory and stops :
Myriel Bienvenu: (oops, wait.... would the guards stop him? or is he good with the state now?)
OneO2Rule em all: (He's good with the state...)
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : wanders into the armory tent :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : mumbles to himself : ... What monsters we have become....
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: ... to bring arms against innocent people... people so poor they can barely feed themselvs... we should be making medicine...not weapons...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : tears mist eyes : I never wanted to hurt anyone... least of all you, Timothy.... or your mother....I loved you... I love you.....
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I thought my stones would help people.... and....all they have done is ruin people's lives......the people I wanted to help...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : is crying now : And....I- I couldn't help them... I couldn't... Timothy I'm sorry. I couldn't save you... I'm a terrible father.... I left and never returned....
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: You...you shouldn't have had to go looking for me....what kind of father abandons his only son!?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: And....when you found me... I wasn't even around when you needed me most... I left again....I left! : leans against a shelf : But that's what I've always done, isn't it? Whenever things got hard.... I left...I left the war....I left your mother, I left you... I left you again....I.... : is crying too hard to speak :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: God! Everything I touch is tainted.... Damn me..... damn alchemy! It is the Devil's Work....I hate it! Those damned stones.... how could I have ever thought they could be used for good....
Myriel Bienvenu: used for anything but evil*
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: Timothy.... It's my fault you got mixed up in alchemy....if ...if I had been there....you wouldn't have been inclined to joined this damned state.....
Myriel Bienvenu: This Damned State and their damned wars! .. : knocks some weapons over semi-intentionally :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : the weapons fall near a vat of red water :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : : eyes vat as he's picking up the fallen weaponry :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : Timothy.... I- I'm sorry.... I have to run again... I know.... I said I wouldn't ..... but..... you wanted me to be happy.... you asked me to try to be happy ...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I can't be happy in a world which wages war on itself for a cause it has forgotten... The serpent biting it's own tail... It is us.
Myriel Bienvenu: devouring*
Myriel Bienvenu: The serpent devouring itself^
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : begins to pry open the lid to the vat of red water :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : stares, almost transfixed by the red water's shimmery surface : This stuff should have killed me years ago... I spent years in that damned lab with my pathetic notes, pathetic calculations, and pathetic daydreams. I am the one who was exposed... you didn't spend a day in that devil's nest... and.... you...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : : goes to take another swig of brandy straight from the bottle, but instead dips the bottle into the red water... filling the void of the brandy he's drunk :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : This... is as it should have been : steels his nerves and drinks from the poisoned brandy bottle :
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : cries out and doubles over in pain as both the red water and brandy burn his throat : Oh Timothy, I'm sorry....it couldn't have been this way...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: *enters into the armory* Tim...? If you still have it I need Timothy's...pocketwatch back...comes upon Marcoh who's hunched over in pain and sees the open vat, red water splashed on the floor and in the brandy bottle*
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : takes another swig of red brandy before noticing Mustang : Roy.... my friend.... eeeergh.. : falls to his hands and knees in pain :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: My God Tim...*rushes over to his side* What the hell do you think you're doing? *snatches bottle from him and throws it, allowing it to shatter* What the hell do you think that was going to prove?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: No! Give it back! :Tries to go straight for the vat of red water, but mustang restrains him which isn't too hard considering the pain coursing through him : My...my poor boy....my poor little boy had to go through months of this torture.......
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: *holding him back* Get ahold of yourself Tim, do you honestly believe Timothy would want you to put yourself through this?
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : looks mustang in the eye, frightened by his words : It's justice, for all the evil I have caused... for the stones, for the rebellion, and most of all for Timothy... I...want to die.... I'm so tired of ... everything... but.... I don't deserve to die quickly and painlessly..... : weak laugh : Poetic no? Drowned in my own vat of red water.....
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : laugh turns to cry of agony :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Dammit Tim, you're out of your mind! *throws him away from the vat, kicking it over so the red water absorbs into the sand* What about during the massacre when I wanted the same thing and you talked me out of it? We both saw Hell together and managed to survive...you're only going to make Timothy's suffering last by harming yourself this way you know...nothing good can come of you killing yourself at this point...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: His suffering has ended...do you really want to die just so you can tell him you took your own life our of self-condemnation? Think about what you're doing...
OneO2Rule em all: *out
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : laying on his side in a fetal position in the sand crying :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Tim...*turns around towards the entrance* I need a medic in here stat! *turns back and crouches down beside Marcoh, placing a hand on his shoulder* Listen...I'll probably never know the pain you're going through right now...having lost your child...but Tim this won't do anything but cause more suffering...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I'm a coward. I've always been a coward... I joined the State....I wasn't thinking of the Exchange... that along with the resources and funding came the price of serving in the State's wars.....I never thought that they would.... I thought the stone would be used to help people.... and then...... during the rebellion.... I couldn't stand it.... I ran away.... you..... you stayed..... you are the stronger man... and then.... when the State came to claim me... I ran again.... I put the Elric's at risk, I put you at risk.... your carreer...for harboring a deserter.... I have always ran....whenever things got too hard..... why should now be any different.......
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I'm taking the suffering with me... like the last time...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : another spasm of pain :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: *attempts to keep him conscious* This isn't running away Tim, this is is giving up hope competely...I just don't understand how you can see anything gained from this...you won't take the suffering with you, you'll only continue it...do you want Timothy's death to be in vain?! He died to remove the sin of the stone with him...and you're just continuing this horrible crime by poisoning yourself with the same components...you're shaming him in doing this!
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: : covers ears with his arms and weeps : Please don't say that..... please....I can't bear it anymore....I can't...I can't... I can't.....
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Listen to me Tim! The sin and the suffering must end! If you take your life here and now you're hurting Timothy more...you're continuing the same kind of torment that he couldn't escape from...dammit it was this same posion you were just pouring into yourself that did this to Timothy in the first place! You should be honoring his death...cherishing the memories you have of him and continuing to love him for the person he was and still is on the other side...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I know...it's just so.....you can't understand what it's like...You don't know what it's like to hold a newborn baby in your hands... to see all the light of possibilty in the world in his eyes.... and then to watch that light dim to a pinprick when he knows there are no more options and there's nothing you can do to save him and he's pleading...begging you to find something that can save him...: spasm of pain : I know what i've done is stupid.....I am nothing but an old fool.....but wh- What do you want me to do? I've already drunk the red water.... there's no going back now.....: pain... :
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: *notices Marcoh has dropped the pocketwatch onto the ground and picks it up, opening it to find but a small stone in it* It's not too late...we can absorb it out of you with this...*removes stone carefully and holds it towards Marcoh* I was hoping...that by using it I could find all the stones and dispose of them...but that isn't going to happen now...so keep it and it'll keep you safe...it can absorb alchemic energy quite easily so you can defend yourself...
Myriel Bienvenu: ( duuude....cool...it fits! ^_^ )
OneO2Rule em all: (^^)
Myriel Bienvenu: (would mustang know immediately what it is? )
Myriel Bienvenu: ( doesn't seem like his line of expertise)
OneO2Rule em all wants to directly connect.
OneO2Rule em all cancels request; no connection was made.
OneO2Rule em all: (The redness kinda gives it off...yeah I think he would recognize it, he used a similar one during the massacre...
OneO2Rule em all: *sry hit that by mistake...*
Myriel Bienvenu: (ahhh yeah, you're right )
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: *uses the stone to absorb the energy from Marcoh* I'm going to have to keep you monitored for a while after tonight Tim; I know it hurts like nothing else, but hopefully you can find solace in something other than harming yourself...Timothy is probably watching you from above right now, is this what you want him to see? You need rest...I promise you the pain will ease with time...*stands and allows the medics to check and helping Marcoh to his feet* Take him to one of the bunkers and make sure he stays there. Tim, I don't want you leaving this camp until I decide that you're well enough to...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: I feel so.... ashamed of myself...
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Tim, you just need to heal...so go and rest and leave this night behind...you're the only one who can keep Timothy's memory truly alive...don't let him down...
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh: If.... if you hadn't found me.... I don't know what I would have done......I owe you my life, my friend....
OneO2Rule em all: Mustang: Thus is the principle of Equivalent Exchange...you convinced me to live on once...and I have done the same for you...*departs*
Myriel Bienvenu: Random Medic : Come on, Sir....
Myriel Bienvenu: Marcoh : Follows Medics....
OneO2Rule em all: (Hey this went better than I thought it would...XP)
Myriel Bienvenu: (yeah....we got to see an interesting side of marcoh..)